Just Do It

My big question for the day has been this: What do I do in the face of adversity? When facing big, huge monsters that scare the blazes out of me... It hasn't really been a question that I couldn't answer. Because I run, and I know it. Just dealing with the truth has been pretty profound. If I continue this way, my goals and dreams for my life simply will not come to pass. I can stay in a place of safety and security forever, and that's fine. But am I happy with that? Well, of course not. I'm writing this now to get it down somewhere and not forget it. So many times just in the last two weeks, I've decided in my mind to give up, no more...I can't do it. I've made mistakes and most of the time feel like I have no clue what I'm doing in more than one area. Someone that I highly respect told me a couple of years ago that I give up too easily. I thought he was just crazy and didn't really know me, because that was SO not true. How funny that it took me so long to agree! This is a proclamation to myself that I am moving forward, taking another step and getting myself off this wretched plateau. I'm sure they're not really big monsters anyway.
Yes, this is cheesy, and I hate being cheesy. I am Mel Gibson in Braveheart with my sword and that blue paint. Or Abraham taking his son up to kill him as a sacrifice to God (ok, well not really.) But it just means that I have to do some things that I don't want to do to get to where I really want to be. Or Tom Hanks on the raft with Wilson going over the big waves to escape from the island. Or Frodo carrying the ring to the scary place because he's the only one that can do it. I think I'm getting the point across.
Time to go! But I can't guarantee that I won't use the same method I use when I watch horror movies - and that would be covering my eyes so that I can only see a small sliver of the screen. But at least I'm watching!